I’m almost ashamed to admit this, but honesty is always the best policy, right? The truth is, I have an addictive personality. While this sounds more serious than it probably is, sometimes it bothers me to no end. I’m not addicted to drugs or alcohol, I’m addicted to certain things at certain points in my life. When I get an idea in my head, I can’t stop thinking about it or fantasizing about it until I do something to make it happen or prove that it’s a bad idea.
For example, I went through a period of seriously wanting to put my house on the market and live in an rv. While this is an idea I’d still consider, I’ve stopped obsessing about it. I’ve realized that it’s just not the best time in my life for me to do this.
I’m just going to cut to the chase. Tonight I made a special trip to Walmart to stock up on dried goods. I guess I got caught up in the hype and wanted to feel safe. While I was there I also bought fabric. I’ve been resisting the temptation for days now and just couldn’t stand it any longer. I only spent $12, but the point is I didn’t need that fabric. Just like I didn’t need the beans, rice, and lentils. I just had to do it because I wanted those things. I wanted the sense of security they provide, and the satisfaction that I can have what I want.
I need to learn to love what I have and not freak out about stupid things. How do you resist temptation?