If you were given a specific amount of time to live, what would you do? I never really got into it too much on my blog, but last year my primary doctor referred me to an oncologist for treatment. Thankfully, a surgery later and I am fully healed. Of course, there’s always a chance that it could come back but I’m not going to let it. I’m taking precautions to prevent it, such as eating a very clean whole foods diet, trying not to stress too much, and exercising. I feel much healthier than I was last year at this time.
I’ll be honest though, when the doctor told me she thought it would be best that I saw an oncologist, I freaked out. I thought I was going to die, I thought that the world was ending, and I just didn’t see a light at the end of the tunnel. I wished I had had kids earlier in life, lived more and worried less, and spent more time telling those I loved that I loved them. Luckily I didn’t end up dying (or anywhere close) but the whole experience made me think more about what I want to do with my life and how I want to live it. I want to live with less “stuff” and simplify my life. I want to spend more time with those I love. I want to spend less time worrying about stuff because it all works out in the end.
Thinking about everything also ties into how I want to spend/save our money. I sometimes go into stockpiling mode with money and don’t let me spend hardly any money. It’s silly, really, because $5 here or there is really not going to break the bank. I know every little bit counts, but if it’s affecting my happiness, what’s the point? I let myself splurge (within reason) every once in awhile.
I’ve been freaked out about the economy for quite some time and I’ve decided that I’m not going to be that way any more. It is something I definitely can’t control, so why should I worry about it? (Please remind me of this next time I freak out!) I need to keep on living my frugal and sensible life and enjoy every minute of it because that’s all I can do. I’ve got a good emergency fund, we each have pretty stable jobs, and we’re continuing to save. I feel we have a pretty good grasp on things.
Worrying always has been one of my weaknesses. I think it’s one of the worst to have. Sometimes I think about what the worst thing that could happen and that would be if we both lost our jobs and house and had to move back in with our parents. I know it’s a horrible situation, but that’s the worst. I hope it doesn’t happen, but it’s a good way to keep me in check with the worrying!
I know that things will work out in the end. Recessions end. Economies recover. I just have to remind myself of these things when I start to freak out about money. I am a strong, resilient young woman. I can survive anything!