I had to unsubscribe from the feed of one of my favorite home decorating blogs this morning. I’ve been reading it for years, but lately I’ve noticed that their pictures of beautiful rooms and neat projects was making me feel like my house was greatly inferior. Years ago I was embarrassed of my house, and while the feeling is still there sometimes, for the most part I am proud of how I’ve fixed up and decorated. It really feels like home now, and I love the size and layout. I have such a hard time reading blogs and looking at pictures online and not comparing them to my house. It’s hard to picture the houses not picture-perfect (and I’m sure that most of the houses aren’t immaculate all the time). I realized that by reading all these house blogs I was setting unrealistic expectations of my own house and had to change something. It was stressing me out when anything in my house was out of place or dirty. With Penny, it’s harder for me to do things than in used to be, and I’d rather spend time with her than spend all my days cleaning.
I’ve also noticed the more time I spend on Pinterest, the more I feel overwhelmed and not good enough. I see all these pictures of beautiful, perfect birthday parties for kids and think of how I want Penny’s birthday to be perfect. However, I know as long as we’re spending the day with her I know it will it be perfect. I really don’t need to spend hundreds on decorations for her to have a good birthday.
The fact is, I need to learn to be content with what I have, especially now that Mr. Money is unemployed. I need to stop making lists of everything in my house that I would like to upgrade and just be happy with how it is. I have to stop comparing things to others, because a lot of things online aren’t really how they are in real life. I’ve got a great house, beautiful family, and a lot to be thankful for. I’ll be focusing on that instead of thinking of all the things I’d like to have. That should help me find some contentment with what I have. At this point, as long as all of our family has all of our needs met, I’ll be happy. I can’t ask for much more than that.